There were a few things adding up to make a difficult day today... The one thing that is hindering me the most at this point is my circadian rhythm. In working night shift half of the week and being off half of the week, my body just gets adjusted to working when all of a sudden I stop and expect my body to readjust to "normal" life. The result is a mess. Even when I'm off, I wake up at 1am and am ready to eat "lunch." I was awake from 1am-4am last night... and could. not. sleep. Then, I cannot stay awake during the day. It just sucks.
So, today, I got up for the day at 7am, after just a couple hours of sleep and had a specific list of things I had to get done for school and my family. Then, what happens? I get a full blown migraine --- Because I didn't sleep! So, I HAD to take time out and take a pill and lay down... So, what happens? I go to sleep! What a mess.
It was about 1pm and I literally said to myself, "If I do not get up, push forward through this headache and do my studying, I will NOT become a midwife." So, with that in my mind, I did it.
I ticked off one thing after another on my "to do" list. I read 2 chapters of bio-statistics... Listened to all of the lectures to go with it. Did the review sheet for the module. And, took the bio-statistics exam and got a 100%.
Then, I went on to make a healthy, good tasting dinner of chicken Parmesan for my family. And, after dinner, I took my daughter out for some needed mother-daughter time.
It may sound like I'm patting myself on the back... But, darn it... It was a hard day, and I struggled through every part of it...
I have to just thank God for the strength and determination he gave me to get off that couch and take the next step. Each step counts. I'm glad that this step is out of the way.
On to tomorrow. and the next day... for the next 2.5 years... Ummm... we'll see.
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