Getting Away From My Roots

I had lunch today with a doula friend of mine.. We had maybe only had lunch together once since I became a practicing RN. We were catching up on each other's lives... telling stories, etc... She called me out, and rightfully so, when I was telling her about being called in to work yesterday for two sections.... "Sections?" As a doula, I would never call a woman's birth a "section." Sections are pieces of grapefruit... Not a childbirth experience.

I realized, yes... I had used to be more careful about my terminology... The little things like that really mattered to me as a doula... and as a mother... What has happened during the past year that I didn't even blink an eye when referring to "2 sections."

I excuse a lot of my lack of "doula care" during deliveries now due to the fact that I am still learning and perfecting the role of the nurse at a birth... and I am so focused on doing all of the procedures correctly, and documenting properly and communicating with the doctors responsibly... That I don't focus so much on the things I did as a doula... giving a back rub and a quick pointer on positioning & movement to a mom and dad going through transition... etc. etc...

I have said (and truly believe) that when I get the "nurse stuff" under my belt and am able to preform my RN functions automatically without much purposeful thinking going into it, then I will be able to more actively incorporate my doula training and experience into my nursing practice... I do think that this will happen... But, now I wonder by that time how many other little things like calling a birth a "section" will I have let creep into my practice and view as normal?

Will try to be more conscience..... Yes, I want to train to be a good OB nurse, But I don't want to lose my convictions along the way.... afterall, those are the things that led me to become a RN in the first place.